Miracles do happen

Today I woke up just like any other day. I layed in bed for a minute thinking things over. I realized i was three days late on my period so i decided to take a pregnancy test to make sure i wasnt before i called my doctor for a prescription to make me start. After i completed the test i put it on the counter and walked out, about five minutes later when i walked back in my whole life changed. It say PREGNANT. Words i was not expecting.After this i stood in shock for a few minutes then called Christopher and told him.He said "Take another one". So I did, I went to town and bought 5 more which all said postive. Then we made our way to the health department to make sure. My husband and I have wanted kids for a while now. Not until recently did we start trying, even to the point of fertility medicine. The medicine had a horrible effect and made me grow a monsterous cyst. The doctor said to quit with all medicine to let my body rest. So we and I went back to the doctor last week and everything looked fine. I was not expecting to find out the news of being pregnant. It was all natural!!!




As I soak in all this information today it was so hard for me to actually believe i wasnt dreaming. How could I be so lucky? My whole world changed in an instance and for the better. I can't wait for the first ultrasound or hearing its heartbeat.I just pray for a healthy pregnancy and healthy child. Its all unimaginable for me right now. I am still in shock. My family know now and are super excited for us. My husband is the best man in the world and will be the best father. He has wanted to be a daddy for so long! We are super excited, living on cloud nine right now. Thanks to all those who have congratulated us. Please keep us in your prayers that we have a healthy pregnancy.

Fall is here

So it has been a while since my last blog. Alot has been going on. Im very emotional. I am so angry that everytime i turn around something else is wrong with my body. Its always broken and never fixed. I know for a fact there are alot more people in worse shape then me. I have been dieting and so far have lost 18 pounds. I pray to God everynight for a healing.

I will just start from the begining. A year ago i was told I have polycystic ovarian syndrome. Its basically where i have a million little cyst covering my ovaries and that it will be harder for me to concieve. The doctor was doing all he could to help but somehow we over stimulated my ovaries and now i have a 8 cm wide cyst compressing my uterus. Needless to say it hurts. We are now trying to see if it will go down on its on or if we will have to have suregery. So i am in constant pain and at night it seems to hurt worst. Its a bit overwhelming. Im not scared of surgery but i just dont know how i can afford it with no health insurance. I have had this surgery before when i was 15 so i have an idea of how it will go. Im mainly worried about missing school. Hopefully with prayers the cyst will go down on its on and no surgery will be needed. Please pray that it does.

On another note my husband is home for 15 days due to lack of work but im so glad he is home that it doesnt bother me of the reason why. I know God will bless us. Last night we went to our first college football game and needless to say i was embarrsed to be a Blazer. WOW it was horrible!!! Fall is offically here and Im loving the weather. This is my favortie seasons. I love thanksgiving, christmas and have grown to love halloween, since my precious nephew was born on that holiday. He is our halloween baby (well big boy now). Well as for tonight that is all from McGovernville. Till next time!

Forgiveness is the attribute of the strong

On Sunday as i woke up, i thought to myself am i really ready for this. Is it a mistake? Am i going to regret it? I got up and got Michael and Macy up to get ready. As we got ready, the ball in my stomache seem to grow bigger. While waiting on my mother to get there, it really hit me. Im going to see my brother today. The one who put me through so much pain because he choose drugs over his family. I have learned i cant live my life without forgiving him. Which was extremely hard to do. In Feb of 2008 i saw a part of him i never want to see again. That was the worst feeling to know your own brother could steal from you and act like he didnt care he hurt you. I havent saw him for almost two years before this day and i was so nervous. The kids havent saw there Dad in over a year and a half.

Anger makes you smaller,

while forgiveness

forces you to grow

beyond what you were.

--Cherie Carter-Scott

On the way over there, I started worrying more and more what it would do to the kids. I mean i honestly think they need there daddy no matter the circumstances. I know they were excited and yet nervous at the same time. They picked on each other the whole time. Once we got there the smiles i saw on those kids faces i will never forget. It was like they were meeting Santa or something. As we walked in, we were checked to mkae sure we had nothing but our ids. We signed in and the officer told us to go into the room and find a seat. We waited about 3 minutes and he came to the door. I had the biggest knot in my stomache. The kids ran up and hugged him. We sat there for about two and half hours and vistied with him. The hardest thing i have ever had to do was telling the kids we had to go. It broke my heart to see there pain. I know they are only my neice and nephew but i never want to see them hurt. Jason talked to them for about ten minutes and finally they understood they had to go. As we said our goodbyes and walked out, they were both crying. We got in the car and not a word was said all the way home. Michael stopped crying and Macy cried her self to sleep.

The family is a haven

in a heartless world.

~ Christopher Lasch

Once we got home they seemed fine and were already talking about the next time we could go see him. There mother came and picked them up and later on that night Michael decided he did not want to go back anymore. He is older and he is a daddy's boy so i think it hurts to see his daddy like that. But how do i tell Jason his son doesnt want to come back and see him. What do i do? I cant make Michael go but i also dont want to be the one to tell Jason. It will kill him inside. Im really scared it will go bad. What if he decides to cure his pain with drugs again? I mean come on just cause he is in a rehab doesnt mean he cant get any. If it was meI would see that as a even more reason to push my self to get out. Its hard either way.

OK onto other news. In 2 days on wednesday, Christopher and I will be married 3 wonderful years. I think i love this man more and more every day. We had some anniversary pictures done by the famous Hope Baldwin. SHe is a great photographer.

Life is Good/Remembering those of 9/11

Life is good here in the backwoods. Over the past week we have been very busy. Last weekend was labor day and we went to the NASCAR races in Atlanta, which were very fun yet tiring.

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Our anniversary is coming up and i cant wait. This will be the 1st time Christopher will actually be home. Its like my first Christmas. Hehe. I told him all i wanted for it was to have our pictures done by the best photographer ever, Mrs. Hope Baldwin. Im so excited and cant wait. I will post the pics as sooon as i get them. Life is good and i cant complain. Although we have been very busy lately I love having something to rather than nothing.

School is going good. I had my first test in Spanish and to my sup rise i made an 89 which i think is very good to for college Spanish 2. I only took a few classes this semester to raise my gpa. I have a walking class which i think will be the easiest A ever. We walk 2 miles then go home. WOOOHOOOO!!!

Today is a historical day. I can still remember where i was at 8 years ago when it all happened. I was in my home ec class in 7th grade. Me and my best friend at the time Ashley were so scared. We want home and talked about ti all night. It was a moment i will never forget. I think all those who fight for our country and put their lives in jeopardy for our freedom. To the families of 9/11 Im so sorry for all the loss. I know its been a long 8 years without your loved ones. May God bless you and help you heal in this time. I know you will all be in my prayers. Also i want to take a second and talk about the spouses of those who fight for our country. One of my best friends, her husband is over seas and although she dont show it i know she is always worried. You have to be a strong person to do that and i commend all. When someone joins a branch of the army their families join to. Thanks you! God Bless you.

On a happier note Michael and Macy are here for the weekend and i can only imagine what is going to happen. Lol. They are a handful but i love them dearly. Well that's all for now from McGovernville.

T-28 days

Well the official countdown is on. For mine and christophers 3rd anniversary. WOW. I cant believe it. So i figured i would tell the story of how we met. On July 23, 2004 we were introduced in the parking lot of Coffee regenioal. I know its a weird place to meet. A couple of days later he called and we talked for hours. We talked everyday for about a week on the phone then one day he didnt call. I didnt understand why. So being me, not afraid to confont someone, I called and asked why he didnt call he said i was acting like i didnt want to talk to him. Not exaclty sure how i mean i was spending hours upon hours on the phone with him. I really think he was trying to figure out if i would call him or be to scared to. Well at this time he was away at his sisters house who lives in Kingsland. I was working at winn-dixie. He told me he would be home that monday and wanted to know if i wanted to do something. I Of course i wanted to go out. Well to my suprise on sunday he shows up to my work(might i say i wasnt looking all that great) and we talked for a little bit and I said i though you werent coming back till Tomorrow and he said i had to come home early so i could see you. Sweet i know. Boy was i fallen then and it had only been a week. So monday night he calls and tells me him and his friend are going to play softball would i like to come. Well of course. I love to play softball, so i grab my cousin Kendra and put in shes going with me. We had a blast. Every night that week we hung out. We went to the movies, out to eat and just mainly hung out around my dads house. SO after that we were pretty much inseperable. We dated for about a month and he finally said I want you to meet my parents before we are officail. SO I was scared to death. I had heard some stories that his mama was so mean. (Not true at all). I came over meet them, stayed for about an hour then we went and walked the track. After we got back to my house, we were sitting on the couch and he said will you be my girlfriend? 2nd best day of my life. We dated all through highschool. During my senior year he kept saying he wanted to marry me. Christmas of 2005 he gave me a promise ring. I accepted because i to wanted to marry him. He is the love of my life and soul mate

Prom 2006

One of our first dates

Prom 2005

ONe of the first times i came to his house

Love of my life.

After I graduated we started talking more and more about marraige and he asked me one night just out of the blue and I said yes.

We changed our wedding date so many times. We were gonna wait a year, then just a few months and we finally decided to get married on September 30, 2006. Greatest day of my life. If you know me or my family i did not grow up with all the things of the world, i didnt have the best childhood and honestly i didnt expect a lot of help. My mama was a big help and my dad actually pitched in. I had a small wedding. Only about 75 people but honestly it could have been just me and him in the middle of the road somewhere and i wouldnt have cared. My wedding turned out better than i ever thought it would. Christophers parents were a big help to. After that day everything else in my life has seen so easy with him by my side. I love him more than words can say and im not gonna act like we dont have our arguments because we do. THats what makes our relationship stronger.

Time Flies!

So this is my second attempt at writing this. I am new to the whole blogger thing so here i go again.

Today as i was getting ready for Aldy my niece's party. I was thinking wow she is going to be six where did the time go. So i decided to start a blog to write down my memories and vent from time to time.

I have few friends and alot of family. I have been through alot in my life. My parents divorced when i was 1o and after that my relationship with my dad has been rocky. Its ok now but theres alot of hurt i need to get over. My oldest brother is in rehab for drugs. He has 2 kids Michael 10 and Macy 5. I love them so much and try to do all i can for them cause they miss him. My 2nd brother Darren has 7 kids. Ashley(7), Brianna(6), Chiristyn(5), Austin(4), Tyler(3), Trista(2) and Alyssa (month 1/2). My 3rd brother has Aldy(6) and Sheldon (3). My sister in law Amanda(husbands sister) has Taylor(12), Kaylee (7) and Devin (2 on Halloween). So as you can see i am blessed with many nieces and nephews and love them all dearly.
I pray for them everyday that they have a happy childhood and can make many memories. I used to remember when i was little all i ever wanted to do was play with my cousins although we are not as close as we used to be i sure do miss those days.

So my husband Christopher is my whole world. We met 5 years ago and have been married 3 of those. Well almost three September 30, 2009. He is truly the love of my life. He works alot so that i dont have to while going to school and for alot of people they would NEVER do his work. He mows gas lines all through out the south. All over Ga and all surrounding states. So he is gone ALOT but im so PROUD of him for what he does. He is sick right now and i cant stand to see him not feeling good. My hubby has a love for all kinds of animals. We have a stud horse, 6 beagles, a blue pitt, rockwaller, 2 walkers dogs , a bird and a dachshund. ALot? Well not to him he loves them all although it is kinda hard to keep them all feed while hes gone. I can never say no. I feel like i cant tell him he cant buy what he wants after all he is working his butt of for me. I cant complain I could have whatever i want. I honestly cant believe its been 5 years since we meet. As i have said time flies. I have many memories with him and cant wait to make more. School is ok i dont like the ride to Valdosta but it will be worth it. Over the years i have lost touch with so many people. Right now im trying to make new friends and honestly can say i have 2 best friends that i love dearly. Life is good. I have my wonderful husband, family and friends.

So onto the party today Shannon and Kelly (sis in law) rented a jumpy/water slide for the party. Those kids had so much fun they played and played. We couldnt get them off of it. Aldy didnt even want her presents (which she got TONS). My brothers and their wives decided it was time for the big kids to get on. Was that a site to see. I was laughing so hard. I often wonder what life is like without siblings. My brothers have given me the best gift in the world, my wonderful nieces and nephews. I could not imagine it and i thank god everyday for my glorious life. My life was hard and time has flown by but i am so thankful. I can remember when i was a little kid wanting to get married and have a family. Sometimes i wish i could be a kid again, there were no worries.

“Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma - which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of other's opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.”

"Time is free, but it's priceless. You can't own it, but you can use it. You can't keep it, but you can spend it. Once you've lost it you can never get it back"

As for now that is all that is going on in my life. I will try and post weekly and even maybe daily. No one may read this but i will have it for me.