T- Minus 8 weeks..HOLY COW

We are now at 32 weeks. I can't believe it has went by so fast. Life is great and getting better. I have always dreamed of having a child and I can't believe it is coming true. I am so happy. We only have 8 weeks left...HOLY COW!!

I can honestly say this pregnancy has been wonderful. The only problems I can complain about are hurting from her growing(good sign), Until this past week. Christopher and I were in Douglas and I started hurting horribly. I didn't know what to do. I figured it was probably just a part of pregnancy, so we started home and He said are you sure we don't need to go to the hospital. Well we both decided to be safe than sorry and Lord I am glad we did. I got there and they hooked me straight up and started monitoring for contractions. I was having contractions about 15 minutes apart and some irritability contractions in between. The nurse gave me some medicine to stop the contractions ans sent me home. The next morning I woke up with the same pain and called my doctor. He told me to go onto bed rest until my next appointment, which is Tuesday, and take Brethine(medicine to stop contractions) every 6 hours. This was/is the scariest thing ever. Although I am more than ready to meet my sweet girl I want her to be healthy and bake as long as she needs to.

Alot has been going on around me as well. My brother who has been in a detention center for 2 years was released and that has taken some adjusting. I am so grateful he is out and pray he stays on the right track for his children. I have decided to change my major to Nursing. I just don't think I can handle being an hour away if something was to happen to Raelyn, plus I think I will enjoy it. Time will tell.

I find myself sitting around thinking about Raelyn. What will she look like? What will she act like? Will I be able to know which cry means what? It is scary to know in only 8 weeks I will hold her in my arms. I want to be the best mother I can possibly be. I worry a lot that I won't know what to do. I'm just hoping a motherly instinct will kick in. I have been around children for 11 years but none of them are mine. I know it will be different. Dear Lord, Please help me be the best mother I can be! Amen.

Until next time! Im still getting used to this!