How will I ever do it??

Life as a mommy is soooo rewarding but can be difficult. I love every minute I spend with Raelyn and so far that has been every minute since she was born. The longest we have been apart is an hour and that almost killed me. I just don't know how Im going to do it. How am I going to leave her and go back to school? Will I be able to focus? She is my whole world right now I can't imagine leaving her. Oh how I wish I could be a stay at home mommy!

Our days are usually very busy( even though we are usually at home). We wake up around 9. Raelyn gets 2 medicines and 2 oz of milk. Two hours later she eats again. We repeat this all day but she gets he medicine four times a day. See, she has a bad case of reflux and it has caused her to lose weight. So we are trying everything possible to stop that. She has started gaining weight back, God's Glory!

How can I leave her with someone? Will they know what to do when she spits and it comes through her nose and she is choking on it?? Will they be able to handle it?? These are questions that run through my head daily as January quickly approaches. I cry thinking about it. I will return to VSU to finish my teaching degree and she will be 50 minutes away from me every day. What if something happens? I just don't know. I stress over this way to much but I think I have a bad case of separation anxiety. After being told I may not ever have children, I just can't bring myself to leave my miracle! Lord please help me make it through this! I know you will.

Enjoy a few pics from the last few months.